Everyday problems for a young adult, mostly anything that pops into my young stubborn mind.
If I wanted to sleep with you. I would have done it. If I wanted to go out, I would make it happen. If I was going to send you “dirty pictures” I would have sent them. I don’t need your approval to do any of these things & buying my food/drink/round of pool, what have you makes it ok to ask for them. I rather pay for all that shit, then here “you owe me” at the end of the night. I used to be the girl that would hop into bed without asking questions. I didn’t care because I got what I wanted & didn’t very much care about what happened after. I am trying, with everything in me to strive for more. I don’t want perfect, that irrational, I want simple. I want casual, dependable & fun. I just want a best friend, that I will sleep with when I’m good & ready. I want someone I can spoil. I’m willing to put in a lot of work into anything, as long as I know I will get it back. I want eyes I can look into at the end of any day & smile. Sadly, every guy I date wants a hot, slutty piece of ass with no brain & no standard. Good old California standards. Enough self pity, time to get this phase over with.